For some reason I don’t believe people when they tell me I’m beautiful.  If I was beautiful then why do guys look at me instead of talk to me.  I always feel fat and ugly.  I’m not saying this so people will have pity on me but this is how I really feel.  I have friends but I never hang out with anyone.  I have guy friends but that is as far as it goes.  I almost never feel pretty.  I always feel ugly. I always feel fat. I always feel like someone is judging me.  Everyone is judging me.  I’m a happy person I’m almost never sad or upset but it’s kinda starting to get to me.  I’m almost 17.  I’ve never had a boyfriend and I’ve never even been kissed:/.  I’m always thinking about what other people think about me.  If they think I’m pretty or if they think I’m fat or annoying etc.  My self- esteem is absolutely worthless.  I may act like none of that would bother me but I think about this constantly.  Am I really that unattractive of fat that no boy would want to go out with me.  I don’t even think I’m pretty.  I just had to get this off of my chest to people who won’t tell me bs.  My best friend won’t tell me bs either but I don’t get to see her until tomorrow.  This is just all been on my mind:/ I just needed to tell someone!